Happiness in 4 Easy Steps...I hope.

I've been remissing. Dropping the maybe cancer blog and then not telling you more!!! So, No I do not have cancer! Even though for a good week I convinced myself I did. Started thinking about how I would make a documentary about the process of having cancer and then of course win Cannes and Sundance. I thought about all the classes I would miss, not being able to put in fake hair, because my real hair would fall out. The chemo, the radiation, the sickness. My friends disappearing, because sadly that's what happens sometimes when you're sick. Alas, I did not have cancer. My lump is benign and I'm going to live.

Still the whole idea of being sick with something that could possibly kill you is intense. I thought about my life, A LOT. I realized that it's time to get happy. To get excited about life and my future, so I have some steps I plan on taking.

1. Quit the job- I'm a rising senior in my dream school. I still live at home during the summers and don't really need things. It's good having pocket change, BUT, the job is too little money for too much work. Also, I don't want to be in situations where I work and no one else does. Where they sitting is against the rules, even if nothing is happening. I cannot stand up for 8 + hours just can't.

2. Get rid of friends who I do not trust- There are plenty of people in my life, who question me, have no faith in me, ridicule me either behind my back or even in front of my face. One friend in particular doesn't realize she has an expressive face and everytime she doubts me, it pisses me off and hurts my feelings. So, basically, if you don't respect me as a filmmaker/artitst, etc, you are done. There's too much at stake in this life for me to be surrounded by fake friends.

3.Loose some weight, but not give up on food- I love food. But I'm way over weight. I've always had a gut, but now my ass is HUGE! But, I love food. And I believe in happiness, but that doesn't mean I need to eat a pint of Ben&Jerry's in one day or that I need that extra piece of cheesecake every time I go to Barnes and noble. It's about moderation, people.

4.Doing things I love- I'm going to continue with Naomi's cooking school and I'm going to make outlandish meals. I'm going to go to the MET, the zoo and other places where I know I'll have a good time. Movies, I'm going to watch good movies. Friends, I'm going to spend more time with my friends.


4 easy steps. Hopefully it'll lead to good things